Monday, April 25, 2005

today is, the greatest.......

i stole that title from billy corrigan(?) of smashing pumpkins fame.

big news from texas, today is my 15th month anniversay, aka 1 year and one quater or 456 + 1/2 days sober!!!!

i'm houston bound in 5 minutes, and hope to go to a meeting tonight.......

Sunday, April 24, 2005

gay coffee, dads, zap mama and dolphins.......

well i left georgia a few days back and now find myself chillin in texas, san antonio-style once again. on the ranch with my darling neice, sister and brother-in-law, who i work with too.

the last few days in atlanta were chock full of fun, work, good food, work, more work oh yeah and work, do you get the picture. one night i got the car and headed east from downtown and found the ubergay midtown area. kind of like a melange of loring park and uptown put together and seemingly a few rainbow flags short of being the castro. well maybe not that gay. it was quite refreshing as downtown is seemingly geared more towards conventioneers and tourists, and seeing a neighborhood like midtown speaks to real life in atlanta. did some underwear shopping (i have a fetish or vice for designer underwear-take your pick) at a cute gay place called boy next door and even found a thai food restuarant named the king and i. as you may or may not know i love thai curry, and stumbling across a thai place with the same name as my favorite minneapolis place i was a bit sceptical. i ordered my fave anyway, panaeng curry, as was handsomely rewarded. very authentic, very fresh and super yummy seems about right.

the next day my dad came from savannah. it's been well over a year since i saw him last. things were always a bit weird with my dad, but we both have been making a better effort to move on and move forward with our relationship. got to have lunch with him and introduce him some of my co-workers. after a quick shower we headed off to yet a another kick ass neighborhood, inwood or candler park. had great indian food, mutual ammends and enlightening conversations before heading off to see a zap mama concert. i was pretty surprised that my dad was as excited to go as i was, he doesn't listen to or participate in many non-secular activities, turns out he's a closet santana fan though. speaking off the concert, i had randomly won tickets for the show one night on the local college radio station, which a friend seemed to point to the fact that it was meant to be. whatta an experince-the show kicked ass!!!! very energetic, beautiful and moving, yes i got teary amongst my getting down. even inspite of the phat afropeaic-hip hop beats my dad even dozed off! he is almost 60, so had to give him credit for coming in the first place.

my general work day is 6am (i get up at 5:30, lookin good doesn't come natural to all off us) and typically work until 6pm. although load in and load out days always go much longer. so post concert, pre load out, low sleep all week i was sleeping on my feet and some how the "coffee" our caters provide doesn't really seem to do a thing for me. did get to have lunch with my dad again and got to say our goodbyes. even though it was a short visit (24 hours) it was one of the best times i have ever spent with him, i think we are starting to find our own middle ground after 20 years of being somewhat estranged.

as promised our load out day was 16+ hours and then back to the hotel to clean up and pack, in bed my 1:30 and up again at 5 to catch our flight to texas. i slept through most of it and even napped in san antonio later that same day too.

i got to pet dolphins, be amazed by sting rays and get wet in a 4-D movie with the neice and family at sea world texas, something i have always wanted to do, and wasn't nearly as scarred like previous daycare trips with my sister and co. to the zoo. its nice to not have to travel with a huge kiddie armada all the time. which brings me to today and sleeping in and coffee in my pjs and..........

Sunday, April 17, 2005

things overheard @ dinner....

so i was having a wonderful time at this beautiful italian restuarant, azio, here in atlanta when my dinner companions (the co-workers) start gawking and talking shit about every single woman and or girl that walks by. i mean it didn't just start up out of the blue, it happens non-stop!! you know i'm ok with she looks good or even those are some amazing tits, but every single female, every single one, tied in with the awful sexual things they would like to do, or wouldn't do for that matter. so instead of saying something, which i'll have to in ammends tomorrow, i sunk to that level and started picking out guys and making comments like, i bet he has a huge dick, or check him out, ummmmmmm he looks good. this made my coworkers a wee bit umcomfortable, and so what. the only difference is they feel it ok to constantly tout their masculinty, or lack thereof, at any given chance, appropriate or not. so i did the same, maybe a bit over the top, but it has been ten days. the guys from my last trip did this too, but not to this extreme. i guess i just thought it weird that they almost all shut down because they didn't want to think that another man would say or think these things about them or other men, ie. being gay is ok, we're ok with you, but we don't want to have to hear about it-"oh and check out that girl over there, i'd love to tap that".........

Saturday, April 16, 2005

hotlanta....

well i seem to be burning through the cities like nobody's business. miami of last week seems quite like a blur, but i was indeed there, even if i didn't get to take in south beach, the ocean or anything else miamiesque for that matter. while most of the 30+ people on our crew flew here to georgia, the 6 member team i'm on got to drive the 12+ hours to get here. thankfully i din't have to drive and got to catch up on some much needed sleep.

today is sort of my one day off, i did work for a few hours this afternoon, but i am going to make the best of of it dammit. i'm going to check out a meeting by the old olympic stadium and hopefully get a bite to eat with some fellows. i did want to get a workout in this afternoon, but the two places i visited in downtown were closed by three pm?!?!

so the number of people sitting in this room just went up to 4. i can't tell if they are reading over my6 shoulder, but they are indeed waiting. peace.......

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

yourami.....

20 years ago, when my cousin was 5, listening to her mother talk about going to miami on a family trip she misinterpreted the name of the city. so when a friend asked her where she was going she lovingly replied "yourami". ha!

well my miami experience hasn't been anything south beachish. the first city of a tour is typically a disaster. with all the extra people you think it would go smoother, but it has been a pretty rocky start. as far as the few car shows i have done this is by far the biggest endevour i have been involved with. my last three days have been grueling 10-12+ work hour days out in the miami sun, yes i'm already burnt, sun burnt that is, even with an spf 40. yikes i really am a pasty minnesnowtan but not for long. the number of teams supporting this show are smaller, but the actual team size is bigger, as well as the number of hot, hot guys i work with, sadly i'm the token homo, but not so sad as it makes me stunningly unique.

speaking of stunning, everyone here in miami is extarabsolutelyfuckinfabulous. its great to see so many beautiful people, but it is a different kind of beauty. in san francisco the beauty factor is also high, but it seems less obviously fashion obessesed and fake. this really is the city of tans, guccis and boob jobs. it's been kind of a trip and has spent my mind spinning lately on the concept of glamour. iused to think the epitome of glamour was looking good with a cocktail in hand and several trips to the mens room to do some blow. i'm having a hrad time in my mind separating the fashion from the drugs and alcohol, but thats neither here nor there, and more just some ridiculous way that my mind thinks. these days anyhow my idea of glamour is much more comfortable and involves being clean and serene to boot....

well its late in the evening and i'm on a public computer and someones waiting and still have several things to do yet tonight.....

Thursday, April 07, 2005

on the road again.....

well i guess i have been slackin a bit on keeping my blog up to date, ooooops.

lets see there wasn't much fallout after my big surgery last week. in and out and completely back to normal the next day. less all the extreme throbbing from said pulled tooth. even my follow up two days ago went fine.

spent the last couple of days saying goodbye to all my family, hometown homies, doing some 9th & 12th step work and even went to a meeting. what with little homestead dramas, the weather and the uncertainty of my new job leaving for my job last january was really easy and much anticipated. this time though after so much time off and connecting with family and old friends i found it very hard to pick up and go, but it'll make coming back all that much more grand. even after a few months though i still miss my old minneapolis place and i'm even watching the nanny (sort of) just like i imagine my pretty girls on lyndale are.....

i thought i had learned some good travel lessons from my last trip out, but sadly my luggage was still 10 pounds over!! arrggghhh!!!! i even pulled more stuff out last minute and thought i had it down to the bare necessities, guess not. i mean i want to travel light but i really, really need everything i packed, i think. i know by bag of shoes doesn't make me a diva, thanks anisa, but i had to pack for 2 months so i guess i feel pretty good about how i did.

after a yummmmmmmy breakfast with an old friend and her son, i spent most of the day sleeping on planes and making my way back to texas, ohhhhhh it is so nice here. i arrived to 85 degrees, sunny dry heat and a nice light breeze. oh my tan is already being refreshed, my spirits too.

i got to spend some great time last night with my sister and neice, oh she's growing up to quick and just relaxing until i leave for my miami this weekend. well there is so much more to say but i'll get to that eventually.......................